I’ve never noticed the term “life manager” until I came across this during my internship, doing a local adaptation for a foreign brand in China. The company sounds nice and the job sounds fun, however to me, it’s not much of a difference.

Why suddenly thought of “life manager”? Life managers are supposed to be able to manage their lives very well, balance work and life, focus on the essence of life and not something superficial. Since I got to China last year, life has been ridiculously hectic. I don’t think it’s because I’m inefficient, but for some reasons there are just too many things going on. I blogged on average twice a month. I went out for meals but I didn’t quite enjoy it that much. A lot of time I finished my meal in 5-10 minutes - always on the go, on the road, on the fly. Is this what I’m looking for? I don’t think so. I hate idling too much but I don’t think I want to live like this for long.

Another day, I went to “wenyi.name” - a food blog address that somehow got written down on a piece of napkin and got discovered again. I saw the food pictures on there and all of a sudden I was in shock. How long has it been? How long has it been since I last took nice picture of food or blogged about restaurant?! I guess it’s been almost a year as well. I felt I’ve lost myself. Don’t have time for anything, not even gym. So, I gradually started jogging a bit in the past few days.

Maybe there is something wrong with me… I don’t know why I feel so tired these days. No much appetite for anything. It’s quite scary that I see the image of an old woman in myself - an old lady who doesn’t feel like doing anything, feeling negative and complaining all day.

A friend felt kinda down lately because of career and lack of love life. I don’t know what to say about that. I believe one has to embrace changes - if you are not satisfied, get up and walk around, read something, do something different. Maybe, drive on a road that you have never been on before. 窮則變, 變則通. Although it’s always easier to say than to do. Just don’t get stuck in inertia. When you see something that you want, go for it. The key is to know what YOU want and not what the society/someone else think what you should have.

Life in Shanghai sometimes feels a bit unreal. I never expect something would happen/turn out like this. There is up’s and down’s. 如人飲水,冷暖自知.

再一次写博客的时候已经是六月最后一天了。到了上海已经一年，我觉得这一年还算是没白过的。今天，这是我第一次用简体字来打博客。想不到会有这一天。这可并不代表我已经遗弃了美丽的繁体字，只是我觉得这个打简体字的软件实在是很好用，而且很快而准。六月的最后一天也是要交很多功课的一天。现在大家都开始实习了，有的回老家去实习、有的到中国其他城市去、有的到海外去。一下子好像大家都各散东西了。还有两个月我也会到西班牙去交换，还有去多伦多参加两个好朋友的婚礼、和看看父母。从五月至今，一直都很忙。跟朋友聊天的时候也好像只会说忙。结果前晚终于受不了，爆发了。需要给自己一些空间和休息。很久没有去运动了，觉得很不健康。那麽忙，不知道为啥。

好，希望七月份可以多博客。

自從來到上海後,一直沒有機會下載音樂,但是也不見得是一件壞事.聽聽一直忽略了的那些音樂,可是日子長了,還是會有點厭倦的.幾天前忍不住,終於下載了宇多田ヒカル的《This is the One》．今天看到戴佩妮的《原諒我就是這樣的女生》，就把心一橫，冒著會被學校發現的危險去下載回來（註：在學校內是不容許P2P的). 聽著聽著，她的歌都會給人那種特別的感覺．這就是創作吧，世界上不會有一模一樣的作品．

再談談學校吧．現在是第三個學期，聽說這應該是很舒服的一個學期，功課的壓力不會太大．但現在看起來好像跟想像中的差頗遠．雖然拿的都是選修課，但每門課都好多事做．其中一門是中國經濟課，教授是中國近代經濟的泰斗吳敬璉．年屆八十歲的老人家，依然精神奕奕的隔天教兩班、共六個小時的課．但是用中文學經濟對我來說可是第一次．聽著他講過去五十年的經濟和歷史，一講便講三個多小時，很多時候講得高興他不會放小息．啊！真的有點吃不消．對他，我要寫個＂服＂字．

這個學期的選修科都要自由組隊，結果可以看到很多中國學生非常有＂競爭力＂的一面．還沒上第二堂課，很多人已經mark住那些成績好的同學們．然後，還神神秘秘的不告訴別人是跟誰一組．唉．好像只要是有點利益衝突的時候就馬上小心起來．

這個週末會到香港一趟參加中學同學的婚禮．身邊的人，最近都有些好消息．看來這兩年我會有機會做＂姊妹＂了．

夏之來臨也就是說蚊子來了．打打打，打死你，蚊子～！

*****

西藏牦牛向你 say Hi!

Tibet Yak

Yes. I’m going to type this post in English (finally). Since I came to China, I think I only have about 1-2 posts per months. Today, it’s the anniversary (due date) of my website hosting. It’s not cheap at all, over CAD 100 per year. I have to say, this website hasn’t been using that much bandwidth or storage. Some people ask, then why don’t you just get the free hosting services or just go with the web-based blogging services? I guess, I have been treating this blog as my baby and I want the best for it. Free hosting services can be quite bad sometimes. I heard of a lot of downtime and some annoying ads that they put on the site, and web-based blogging… I’m afraid it would be a disaster to transfer all my old posts and comments to that (not sure if that’s doable… I guess there’s always a way. It’s just that I don’t have the luxury of time). So, there I think I will renew it again with Dreamhost. Excellent service but a bit expensive.

Some updates on marz. The month of May is the start of Term 3, which means I’m half way through my MBA program. This is going to be a short academic term. July-August will be internship/GCP (Group Consulting Project), which means I will (should) be working full time for a very low pay. Then September to December I will go on exchange to IESE in Barcelona, Spain. I will probably drop by Toronto for 1-2 weeks in September. I think it’s just human nature; home is where your family is. My parents and a lot of good friends are in Toronto and I miss them. These days in Shanghai, everyday all I speak is English or Mandarin. Today, I all of a sudden feel that I’m quite tired of that. I want to speak Cantonese, my mother tongue. I think that’s why people who are overseas always feel so close to those who come from the same country/origin.

Back to student life meaning… Travelling and going out on a budget. I’ve applied for 2 scholarships and wish me good luck. I really look forward to living in Spain and maybe travelling a bit in Western Europe.

I have been eating out here and there, but again not much time to write about it. Sometimes I feel that I haven’t been going out much, but there is a deck of restaurant business cards that I’ve collected from the places that I’ve been to. That’s the reality vs. perception. I think it’s also the quality vs. quantity as well. So far, I haven’t had a restaurant that wow-ed me.

Student life is not layback at all. There are all sources of pressure: school and work plus all other things that an adult has to take care of. Last night I went clubbing and noticed that I no longer like that kind of life style. After a few hours, I already wanted to leave. If it wasn’t for a friend’s bday, I wouldn’t have gone to a club. Maybe you say I’m settled. I agree that is definitely a factor. It’s probably the crowd and the age. Staying up till 4am and waking up at 1pm. A whole day was gone. I really hate saturday class, it makes the weekend even shorter. Sometimes I thought is this MBA worth it? I think at the end of the day, the answer is yes, especially I have the chance to live in a different city. But I’m getting so sick of school all of a sudden. (Yes, I’m not in a really good mood today. Just want to vent a bit.)

Love life. This is about the 7 months. I don’t know how to describe how it is. Overall is good, but I need to diagnose my own feelings. What was the reason for my sudden mood swing and even hatred? I guess I just dislike those people who think too 高尚 of themselves. I also need space and that’s why I’m blogging in the library now.

Ah. Quite a lot of weddings are coming up. Two in September, one in March 2010 and another one probabaly in September 2010. They are all my good friends’ weddings. Time flies. Among the groups of girl friends, I think G and I will be the last ones to get married. Also congratulations to my cousin who just got married in Feb in Toronto and had the banquets in May in HK. Unfortunately, I couldn’t attend the wedding ceremony/banquet due to my travel to Tibet in May.

Is marriage a necessity of life? Probably not. But I believe it is necessary to have significant others to have the mutual support. Unfortunately I am such an individualist that I don’t know how to interact closely with someone. It like the “trust” game. It will not work unless you have the confident or willingness to fall on to the other person, who will support you from falling to the ground. No one is perfect. It is a lifetime learning to accept the personal flaws and how to deal with them.

I have so much to share, but it’s time for me to do some case studies. I’m just so sick of business cases now. god.

對不起．格子到了中國，好像有點吃不消．

不覺得自己是個feminist(男女平等主義者)，但有時候我會覺得＂為甚麼會這樣！＂

為甚麼照相的時候，總要女人蹲在前面？為甚麼不可以大家平起平坐？最受不了的是：很多時候，還是那些看自己不起的女人自願和要求其他女人蹲在前面的．

還有一大堆超自私的人：狂下載，讓我每一個網站都要refresh三次才load得到；有去吃飯，連人家的布餐巾都要帶走幾條的；有做free rider、不做事，臉也不紅；當然還有很多人，約你出去只為要你當陪酒．可惜就是當陪酒也會有大把女人搶著當．在中國，人就是賤．人那麼多，甚麼猛人、奇人、賤人都有．

對不起，格子就是多嚕囌．

最近去過蘇州、江西婺源，可能五一的時候會到西藏吧．去過很多附近的鄉村地方，大部份都很相似，是時候去一些不同的地方了！