寂寞,不是出軌的理由
無題 (whatever) June 28th, 2007
From John’s blog:
理性的男人真的很有魅力 . 是成熟男人的表現 .
女人帶著孩子出門旅遊去了,留下了男人一個人在家。
女人不在家,男人喝著啤酒,不停地換著電視頻道。
這時,女孩的電話打來了,她說,我閒著沒事,到你家坐坐吧。
男人說,這–不行,我正要出去。
女孩其實已經在男人的樓下了。
女孩是男人的部下,女孩很多次對他表示出了好感,男人都巧妙地拒絕了。
男人知道,年輕女孩的心是一張空白的紙,他沒有資格在上面留下任何墨跡。
女孩手裡提著很多東西,還有一瓶紅酒,站在了男人的家門口。
男人說,那我下廚吧。
女孩說,不用,便在廚房裡忙碌起來。男人忙不迭地收拾房子,他偶然看見女孩忙碌的背影,突然有了一種感動。就那麼一會兒,他立即將這種片刻的感覺壓在了心底。
在另一間房子裏,他開始打電話約熟悉的朋友來家裏吃飯,可是朋友們都不在。
過一會,女孩已經在喊他了,他到廚房猛地愣了,女孩端給他的是一盤熱騰騰的餃子。
他最愛吃餃子了,可是,平時他和女人都太忙,沒有時間包餃子。
兩盤餃子、幾碟小菜、一瓶紅酒,女孩的臉上柔柔的笑,攪動了他的心。
說不清為什麼,他在女孩不注意的時候,關掉了手機,拉上了陽台的簾。
他能聽到自己心跳的聲音。
一瓶紅酒喝完了,女孩說頭暈,就軟綿綿地倒在了男人懷裏。男人承認女孩是美麗的,他緊緊地把她抱在懷裏,也就在那一刻,他才感覺到女孩的身體是那樣的弱小,在他寬闊的肩膀裏像個孩子似的睡著,像他的女兒,他的心猛地一顫。
女孩在他的床上睡去了,他輕輕地帶上了門。
這時,客廳的電話響了,是女人和孩子打來的。
男人仍然喝著啤酒,不停地換著頻道,他分明聽到了女孩輕微的呼吸,但是,他努力地讓自己的心冷靜、再冷靜。
女孩醒來的時候已經是第二天早上。男人一夜未眠。男人為女孩准備了早餐。
吃飯的時候,女孩問,你不喜歡我嗎?男人說,喜歡。那你不寂寞嗎?
有點,可是–怕我糾纏你?女孩的嘴像扁豆似的發問。
男人認真地說,生活是一種責任,就像這碗稀飯和煎蛋,盡管老吃覺得沒有什麼味道,可是你每天還得做、還得吃,有時甚至覺得它難吃,可是不吃心裏空蕩蕩的。
女孩沈默了。送走了女孩,男人覺得從未有過的輕鬆。
愛是一種誠信,是需要付出代價的,如果不愛,或無法承受,那麼就別輕易地將自己的心打開。
誘惑和寂寞,本不是愛的理由。
暴露
生活 (m-life) June 28th, 2007
暴露是危險的-無論是身體或是身份。
不要以為不把自己的姓名地址打在網上,別人就不會知道你。
Facebook等等網站營造了一個安全、有私隱的空間。
但,其實把太多的個人資料放在網上很不智。
小心為上。
好像很久
生活 (m-life) June 27th, 2007
很久沒有打中文啦 。還是覺得用中文表達得比較流暢。
只是打得比較慢,而且,有些‘讀者’不會看中文。
沒想到,那麼快就從英國回來。
十天的行程,能夠再見到老朋友,真的很感動。
第一天到達‘苑’家,苑抱著我哭了出來。
她雖然變瘦了,但能夠跟‘新’在一起,他們是幸福的一對。
婚禮頗簡單,但出席的都是好朋友。
從註冊處到船上慶祝,花球、裝飾品都是大家一手製作的。
一個禮拜內,苑和新帶我和‘齊’到英國四周的地方遊覽。
雖然走得很累,但很開心。
尤其是,對著老朋友,沒有顧忌,相處得舒服。
(對喔。就是那十天,每天走路十小時,我變瘦了!)
在飛機場,看著齊踏進departure的閘口,我們的眼睛都變得水汪汪的。
不知道,下一次的三人聚會是甚麼時候、甚麼情況了。
拍了很多照,但還沒有時間整理。
軀殼回到公司,但心還是在渡假。
Thoughts… and lots of thoughts
生活 (m-life) June 26th, 2007
It still feels like a dream to me. From the moment I got the short notice from my friend to the day I got back to T.O., it’s only been about a month. The trip was great! I am happy that I could see both of my best girl friends from HS again.
From our 10-days trip, both GL and I love and hate London.
We Love…
London is dynamic, compared to a lot of the other European cities.
London’s historic background, architecture, literature, musical - everything seems to be so cultured and rich. It is a privilege to be able to stand in front of all the masterpieces.
We Hate…
London’s weather is miserable - you gotta bring an umbrella with you everytime you go out. The sky can change from bright sunny to rain-pouring within 15 minutes.
London’s air is much more polluted than Toronto. (I find the air condition there similar to the one in HK)
London’s transportation system (especially train) is quite complex. A lot of the time it depends on your luck. If the manager on your train happen to be knowledgeable, then you can probably get a fair-priced ticket (to areas outside of London). If not, good luck.
London people - are less friendly and maybe less polite (that feeling was especially strong when I first got back to T.O. and went to the stores here)
Sadly…London’s also an expensive city to live in - you see the same price on the price tag (as is in Canadian), but the currency is in Sterling. Implication: Good food costs much more!
*Thoughts to be continued*
Marz Update
一遊 (m-footprint) June 15th, 2007
June 15 - YAY now I’m in UK now
Helping out with the wedding.
Will update this whenever I can…
June 16 - 1:15am UK time
- Today has been a hectic day… didn’t expect that when I’m “on vacation”. But overall it’s great that I can see GL and EC (the bride) again. I think last time was 10 years ago when we stayed over at one person’s place. So tired now. Now we’re waiting for the wedding car to arrive (@ this 1am time) and then decorate it. Was using a public phone for a bit, the connection fee was 40p, I put in 2 pounds and after 50p, I hanged up the phone, but there was NO CHANGE gosh… there goes 4 bucks canadian for a 1min call! ahhhhh
June 17 - went south to Brighton
June 18 - went to Bath - spent 8 hours in total on the train and 4 hours in Bath. Had a Kebob roll @ 1am
June 19 - 21 - mainly travelled around London ~ ahhhh everything’s so expensive here! Went to Tata Modern and spent the biggest piece of my budget there @_@
June 22 - Fairwell for GL - Had Thai food… due to flight delay, stayed with GL @ Park Inn Hotel for a night and had Indian buffet
June 23 - Went to airport again… checked in @ 2:30pm. Her plane got delayed again til 6pm - I went to Oxford Street again afterwards… T_T I miss her already…
June 24 - My turn to fly. Just got back home a few hours ago.
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